Si Tua

Setelah aku selesai menoleh ke kanan dan ke kiri memberi salam, mata aku tertumpu pada seorang tua yang sedang kusyuk beribadat. Aku tersedar akan kehadiran dia di dalam masjid ini sejak beberapa malam sebelum ini. Entah kenapa tanpa sebab yang pasti, hati aku luluh ketika terlihat kelibat si tua ini yang terbongkok berdiri di hadapan Tuhannya.

Rukuk dan berdirinya si hamba Allah ini sudah tiada banyak bezanya lagi. Hatiku sedih bercampur terharu. Dengan keadaannya yang serba lemah dan tua, si tua ini tetap istiqamah dalam ibadatnya kepada Yang Satu.

Setiap kali sesudah selesai bacaan doa selepas solat witir, si tua ini akan bersusah-payah, sedaya-upaya berusaha untuk bangun dan bersalam dengan jemaah yang lain. Kadang, oleh kerana pergerakannya yang sangat lambat, dia hanya mampu berjabat tangan dengan dua atau tiga orang sahaja.

Mulai semalam aku cuba untuk duduk dekat dengannya, entah kenapa, aku tak pasti.

Pernah suatu ketika, selepas pulang dari masjid, aku menukar pakaian dan bersiap-siap untuk keluar rumah. Dalam perjalananku keluar aku terlihat susuk tubuh yang sangat aku kenal, si tua itu, masih dalam perjalanannya pulang dari masjid, bergerak perlahan setapak demi setapak dengan wajah yang hampir menyembah tanah.

Aduh, lagi hatiku remuk. Betapa kudrat si dia yang satu ini tak pernah menjadi halangan untuk ke rumah Allah.

Malam pertama Ramadhan aku pernah berfikir, adakah aku mahu ke masjid ataupun tidak. Di hati berasa malas tak semena-mena. Cukuplah solatku cuma seorang-seorang di bilik tidur, berkata aku dibenakku.

Apakah jadahnya? Aku yang muda ni malas. Padahal si tua dgn keadaannya yang tak mengizinkan, tekad ke sana.

Nasibku baik. Status facebookku dibalas dengan nasihat daripada teman-teman:






Mohd Uda
I am thinking whether want to go to the mosque for tarawih or not. it's 1st of Ramadan tonight.


21 August at 18:33 via Twitter ·
comments:



don think...juz go



g je uda..



must go!!!!!!



isk2...nak jmpa awek xyah pikir nak p ke xnak...tp nak p solat tarawih pun nak kena pikir byk mcm ni...xkan la nak tggu umur 50 bru xyah pikir kot 2pun kalu sempat...beribadatlah kamu seperti itu adalah ibadat terakhir kamu...



gi r...pemalas...cube r jd mcm aku



hehe insaf plak dgr murshikidal bg ceramah. alar ingat nak wat kat rumah jer 1st night. kat masjid ramai org sgt la awal2 ni.. =p



bagos la jemaah ramai..ape la uda ni...



btol2.g jemaah tau ude.klau blh g jd imam trus.lg bgus..



baiklah kawan2 ku. trima kasih atas nasihat. td memang cam 75% malas nak gi, skrg da tggl 10%. jom gi masjid! :)


Alhamdulillah~ =p

no driving licence

I am as old as 23 years old but yet I’m still cannot drive a car. I don’t know how to drive, never really got the chance to learn how to drive, and off course I don’t have a driving licence.

If you ask me one thing in my life that I’m not so happy about is this.

And sometimes I feel like I am not a normal person. Or simply feel like I am not even a human if we look at the definition of what human is by what they or majority of them are doing.

Thinking why I am like this, I always blaming all those hindrances such as money, availability of a car to learn to drive or time constrains.

But how come everybody else could do it except me. Why.

That’s the reason why I said that I am no human. And I am 23 years old for God sake.

new topic for my research?

Now I’m busy working on the new research proposal. Sigh!

Few days ago I went to the hospital to proceed with my intended research titled pregnancy and the risk of breast cancer in women in one of the hospital in Medan. Unfortunately when I was just an inch from getting the medical records needed, the consultant suggested that I change my research. This means I have to change everything that I’ve done or simply do it all over again.

He said that the outcome would not going to be like what I expected, that pregnancy lowers the risk of breast cancer, because there are a lot of others factor affected the possibility getting the lethal disease. My interest is only to study the relationship of those two things. But since the medical records available are not that many, and to exclude other factors that might have caused the disease is impossible, I agreed to think about his suggestion and later I met my tutor and a CRP lecture. They allowed me to change my topic.

I am confused. Thinking about whether I should stick with my previous title or go ahead with a new one.

Still thinking about this. I already began doing the literature review for the new proposal.

The consultant is really knowledgeable, and I won’t let go the chance of working with him. But, the main problem is time constraint!! With the classes, practicals and exams and also the clinical semester starting next year and I am so not ready for it. Argh!!