Like always, I was going for burger as dinner rather than.. another plate of rice. Tonight I cycled, out to a burger stall not really far from my house, alone, because my friend who I always have dinner with, he’s already started his tight diet programme. (haha)
Once there, the lady asked me, 'like always?' And I said yeah. She knew that I would always order a burger without chilli sauce, just mayo.
While waiting, I had a little chat with her husband who has worked in Malaysia for 15 years. He admired Malaysia very much, the place, the people and their working attitude. I’m glad he had a good time working in Malaysia.
But tonight a guy from the next shop interrupted our conversation by started asking, why Malaysian always treated Indonesian as a second class human? Wow what an intimidating question. He looked mad. I was shocked by his sudden anger lash-out, though it wasn’t my first time, really. But the guy who has worked in Malaysia defended and be in Malaysian side. Then there went a quite heated-up open debate regarding issues between both countries.
I’m not going to write here what were the exact points they made, just like the same boring points that came up like any other debates or writings about the Malaysia-Indonesia issues. The different is that the guys who defended Malaysia has worked in Malaysia for 15 years and the other guy has a sister still working in Malaysia as maid.
What impressed me is that their openness to such open debate. Though both are Indonesian, I don’t feel scared or threatened, because they actually just expressing their opinions and thoughts based on their experience and what they heard/ read. It's a healthy way of channelling ones' anger or dissatisfaction over something, and such open debate is actually a good thing.
At least it’s better than a lady in a car who lowered her car’s window while me and my friend on a bike next to her car, waiting for the traffic light to turn green, and she said in a harsh tone, ‘hoi Malaysia! Awas ya, kalo tertabrak dikit aku hajar kau!’. And we’re like... what the?
Okay now.. I’m going to eat my burger. It’s getting cold.
16 December 2010
01 October 2010
power outage in Medan.
The electricity went off twice today! so stressful. Wrong timing. I was really in a middle of something in front of my desktop computer. Got lots of work needed to be done before tomorrow.
I've been living here in Medan for four years but seriously there's no improvement!
It's always went blackout just like that. It can be more than once in a day and never never expect any prior notice about the coming power outage.
Why can't something be done about this. Other than making the people to pay more and more every year of course. I feel like saying, if you're unable to handle this problem, why don't you use foreign expertise instead. Let them come, invest and teach us how to do it. For the benefit of the people and country in a long run.
And we, the consumers too, should do our part! Like stop wasting energy. I tweeted in twitter about my disappointment this morning. I was in room with plenty of windows but the lamps were switched on instead. I drawn the curtain open to let the bright natural light come in but somebody closed it back later. And we used the lamps to light up the room till we went back. talking about irony.
I hope the local government is doing something about this, and we the consumer, get used to minimise our electricity consumption and stop wasting it. for the benefit of all.
I've been living here in Medan for four years but seriously there's no improvement!
It's always went blackout just like that. It can be more than once in a day and never never expect any prior notice about the coming power outage.
Why can't something be done about this. Other than making the people to pay more and more every year of course. I feel like saying, if you're unable to handle this problem, why don't you use foreign expertise instead. Let them come, invest and teach us how to do it. For the benefit of the people and country in a long run.
And we, the consumers too, should do our part! Like stop wasting energy. I tweeted in twitter about my disappointment this morning. I was in room with plenty of windows but the lamps were switched on instead. I drawn the curtain open to let the bright natural light come in but somebody closed it back later. And we used the lamps to light up the room till we went back. talking about irony.
I hope the local government is doing something about this, and we the consumer, get used to minimise our electricity consumption and stop wasting it. for the benefit of all.
22 September 2010
love built to last
Sometimes breaking something is easier than making it. Or maybe for most of the time.
Same thing in relationship. Starting to know each other and beginning to like your partner is really exciting. Especially the part when we like somebody and that somebody likes us back. The feeling is so great that we feel like we're flying high in the air and there are flowers in our heart that begin to blossom.
Then we confess to each other about our feelings, about how strong our loves are to her/him. And we become girlfriend and boyfriend. We are the happiest person on earth.
But what is harder is to stay together for as long as it can be. I have friends who were together as a couple. They started their relationship like two years ago and it wasn't the easy one. They had to overcome many hindrances. But the strong of a love is invincible. Their relationship went quite well.. until recently. They broke-up. They guy said he doesn't have the feeling anymore. That's all.
I honestly understand how hard it is to make the excitement we had in the beginning to stay put. It requires patience. Me and my girlfriend, sometimes we have this 'silent' phase, an awkward moment. when we rarely talk to each other. and get annoyed by each other easily. But I try not to keep it like that for too long. And sometimes if it wasn't me, she will be the one who approaches me first.
So, relationship is really a two way process. it's like trying to make a sound by clapping which you need both of your hands. it takes two to tango.
A lesson learned for me. To be careful, to keep this relationship as long as possible or as long as eternity as I hope it would.
Same thing in relationship. Starting to know each other and beginning to like your partner is really exciting. Especially the part when we like somebody and that somebody likes us back. The feeling is so great that we feel like we're flying high in the air and there are flowers in our heart that begin to blossom.
Then we confess to each other about our feelings, about how strong our loves are to her/him. And we become girlfriend and boyfriend. We are the happiest person on earth.
But what is harder is to stay together for as long as it can be. I have friends who were together as a couple. They started their relationship like two years ago and it wasn't the easy one. They had to overcome many hindrances. But the strong of a love is invincible. Their relationship went quite well.. until recently. They broke-up. They guy said he doesn't have the feeling anymore. That's all.
I honestly understand how hard it is to make the excitement we had in the beginning to stay put. It requires patience. Me and my girlfriend, sometimes we have this 'silent' phase, an awkward moment. when we rarely talk to each other. and get annoyed by each other easily. But I try not to keep it like that for too long. And sometimes if it wasn't me, she will be the one who approaches me first.
So, relationship is really a two way process. it's like trying to make a sound by clapping which you need both of your hands. it takes two to tango.
A lesson learned for me. To be careful, to keep this relationship as long as possible or as long as eternity as I hope it would.
15 September 2010
let's unite.
Hey, why some of you are still busy trying to divide us, to make us follow you and hate one another? Can we stop acting like we’re so different and start looking at how similar we are to each other.
We all human. And in Islam we are all same though we have different colours, cultures or size.
I understand we might have different views on almost everything. But can we stop it for a while. And work together for a more prosperous and developed nation. For the future. For our own children’s sake.
If you think we need a new and a better leader to govern and become the CEO of our country, do take part /contest in the election. And once the majority has made their decision, can you shut up for a while at least until next four years, for the next election. Stop talking already and start working.
Stop creating groups. Stop acting like we’re aliens to each other.
And since it’s Malaysia day tomorrow, I want to wish all Malaysians a happy Malaysia day!
We all human. And in Islam we are all same though we have different colours, cultures or size.
I understand we might have different views on almost everything. But can we stop it for a while. And work together for a more prosperous and developed nation. For the future. For our own children’s sake.
If you think we need a new and a better leader to govern and become the CEO of our country, do take part /contest in the election. And once the majority has made their decision, can you shut up for a while at least until next four years, for the next election. Stop talking already and start working.
Stop creating groups. Stop acting like we’re aliens to each other.
And since it’s Malaysia day tomorrow, I want to wish all Malaysians a happy Malaysia day!
09 September 2010
selamat hari raya!
I just broke my last fast for this year's Ramadan. While some parts of me feeling sad for leaving Ramadan behind, a bigger part of me feeling happy that now, it is the 1st of month Syawal. it's time to rejoice and be happy, wear something nice, spray some perfume, decorate house beautifully, cook nice dishes and most importantly asking for forgiveness between us friends and families and put any bad feelings/things behind.
Though I'm celebrating this eid away from family, I'm thankful that I still able to keep in touch with them easily and that I have friends to celebrate with here in Medan, Indonesia.
I'm taking this opportunity to wish every Muslims wherever you are a very happy aidilfitri. please forgive me if there are any misdeeds or acts that might hurt you or make you angry. God bless ya!
الله اكبرالله اكبرالله اكبر
Though I'm celebrating this eid away from family, I'm thankful that I still able to keep in touch with them easily and that I have friends to celebrate with here in Medan, Indonesia.
I'm taking this opportunity to wish every Muslims wherever you are a very happy aidilfitri. please forgive me if there are any misdeeds or acts that might hurt you or make you angry. God bless ya!
الله اكبرالله اكبرالله اكبر
08 September 2010
Robert T. Kiyosaki's Rich Dad Poor Dad
The final exam for psychiatry rotation is done yesterday so I was able to continue reading this book.
I knew about this book from a friend of mine, which is I believe is quite rich, he said this is one of the good book that he has read. Thank God the The Times book store in Plaza Medan Fair has this book and I bought it a few weeks ago.
This is a book that practically teaches you how to be rich. By reading this book, I've learned many things about money. The author of the book, Robert T. Kawasaki explained on how to make money work for us instead of we working for money, which is I found interesting.
My favourite part is when the writer explained about the difference between the rich, the middle class and the rich , how they spend their income , and how can somebody be trapped in a 'rat-race' or middle class trap.
Hence I think this book is a really good book for somebody like me who wants to know more about how to gain money and get out of this financial disaster or to prevent it from happening in the future. The writer also used diagrams which makes the explanation easy to be understood.
There was one night when suddenly it went blackout and I used my hand phone to shed some light so that I could keep on reading. I love this book that much.
I knew about this book from a friend of mine, which is I believe is quite rich, he said this is one of the good book that he has read. Thank God the The Times book store in Plaza Medan Fair has this book and I bought it a few weeks ago.
This is a book that practically teaches you how to be rich. By reading this book, I've learned many things about money. The author of the book, Robert T. Kawasaki explained on how to make money work for us instead of we working for money, which is I found interesting.
My favourite part is when the writer explained about the difference between the rich, the middle class and the rich , how they spend their income , and how can somebody be trapped in a 'rat-race' or middle class trap.
Hence I think this book is a really good book for somebody like me who wants to know more about how to gain money and get out of this financial disaster or to prevent it from happening in the future. The writer also used diagrams which makes the explanation easy to be understood.
There was one night when suddenly it went blackout and I used my hand phone to shed some light so that I could keep on reading. I love this book that much.
31 August 2010
Happy birthday Malaysia!
It’s Malaysia Independence Day anniversary today. I want to take this opportunity to wish all Malaysians wherever you are a very happy and blessed merdeka day! There are so many things that we should be thankful for being born in land called Malaysia. For its peace, economy stability, political stability, and for the harmonious multiracial of its citizens.
There are of course lots of problems coming in our way unstoppably, but we managed to handle them wisely for the benefits of everyone. Be it internally or across the border with the outside world.
Just like the recent sparks with our neighbour. I think we have acted accordingly without turning the sparks into fire. We are brothers right? Muslims are brothers to each other. As written in al-Quran surah al-hujarat (49:10): “The believers are but a single brotherhood: so make peace and reconciliation between your two (contending) brothers; and fear Allah, that ye may receive Mercy.”
So in my opinion the true meaning of independence is actually how strong we obey/stick to the real teachings of Islam without being influenced by any other things. Nowadays we get on each other’s throat very easily ignoring the fact that we’re brothers, as we pursue our very own needs and importance.
Happy 53rd independence day! And be independent!
There are of course lots of problems coming in our way unstoppably, but we managed to handle them wisely for the benefits of everyone. Be it internally or across the border with the outside world.
Just like the recent sparks with our neighbour. I think we have acted accordingly without turning the sparks into fire. We are brothers right? Muslims are brothers to each other. As written in al-Quran surah al-hujarat (49:10): “The believers are but a single brotherhood: so make peace and reconciliation between your two (contending) brothers; and fear Allah, that ye may receive Mercy.”
So in my opinion the true meaning of independence is actually how strong we obey/stick to the real teachings of Islam without being influenced by any other things. Nowadays we get on each other’s throat very easily ignoring the fact that we’re brothers, as we pursue our very own needs and importance.
Happy 53rd independence day! And be independent!
30 August 2010
ubu's first 'love'
Ubu is a cat I adopted 6 months ago.
Now she has grown up and not a kitten any more. The necklace with a bell I bought seems like tightened around her neck already. The bell supposed to be green in colour turned goldish brown now.
what bothers me now is that she wants to make love. when I was just arrived home I notice there were five male cats waiting outside for my cute little ubu. she's too young for that. and ubu which was inside the house looked so horny. man, she didn't know that if she does that she'll get pregnant. and she's too young for that.
she has a boyfriend since a long time ago but she never showed any interest to actually 'make love' to him. but now she seems really into it. and not with her similar-age-boyfriend. but to several huge old cats which I always chased away when they caught peeking on my cat when ubu was small (gosh paedophiles!!)
my previous cat at my previous house, Luna also did the same thing. she was barely big enough to have babies. she ended delivered 3 kittens but 2 of them died. I brought luna to a veterinarian and it turned out that Luna didn't has milk to milk her kittens. Luna fell in love again and her kittens neglected.
last night Ubu was grounded. I closed all the windows that she normally use to get out. she looked desperate but I have to do the best thing for her. she has to wait for few more months for that. and today I did the same thing. she looked so horny and refused to eat. she looked terribly need some physical.
just now my house-maid was sweeping and cleaning our house and she opened the door widely and Ubu ran out. I noticed that but I just let her go. Maybe I don't really know what is best for her. maybe I should let the nature works by its own way. and let ubu be happy and fulfil her.. err need.
Now she has grown up and not a kitten any more. The necklace with a bell I bought seems like tightened around her neck already. The bell supposed to be green in colour turned goldish brown now.
what bothers me now is that she wants to make love. when I was just arrived home I notice there were five male cats waiting outside for my cute little ubu. she's too young for that. and ubu which was inside the house looked so horny. man, she didn't know that if she does that she'll get pregnant. and she's too young for that.
she has a boyfriend since a long time ago but she never showed any interest to actually 'make love' to him. but now she seems really into it. and not with her similar-age-boyfriend. but to several huge old cats which I always chased away when they caught peeking on my cat when ubu was small (gosh paedophiles!!)
my previous cat at my previous house, Luna also did the same thing. she was barely big enough to have babies. she ended delivered 3 kittens but 2 of them died. I brought luna to a veterinarian and it turned out that Luna didn't has milk to milk her kittens. Luna fell in love again and her kittens neglected.
last night Ubu was grounded. I closed all the windows that she normally use to get out. she looked desperate but I have to do the best thing for her. she has to wait for few more months for that. and today I did the same thing. she looked so horny and refused to eat. she looked terribly need some physical.
just now my house-maid was sweeping and cleaning our house and she opened the door widely and Ubu ran out. I noticed that but I just let her go. Maybe I don't really know what is best for her. maybe I should let the nature works by its own way. and let ubu be happy and fulfil her.. err need.
28 August 2010
Tariq Ramadan's In the Footstep of the Prophet: Lessons from the Life of Muhammad
Have you read the Tariq Ramadan's In the Footstep of the Prophet? This book is a must-read to all of you, highly recommended. And it is definitely the best book to read during this holy month of Ramadan.
I bought it last year and it's my favourite until now. it's really an eye opener and it makes you realized how amazingly good a person, a husband and a leader the prophet Muhammad pbuh was. I've read it several times and still feel like reading it again.
It is a biography of our beloved prophet pbuh telling how he beautifully, wisely handled lots of difficulty he encountered throughout his life. And all those examples shown by him that every Muslim should takes note and follow. There are so many lessons we can learn.
I don't think this book is only suitable for Muslims. To non-Muslims I think this book is best book that introduces the true teachings of Islam.
I passed the book to my girlfriend. She has read it, she said the book was so nice that she's thinking of buying it for his father as a present.
I bought it last year and it's my favourite until now. it's really an eye opener and it makes you realized how amazingly good a person, a husband and a leader the prophet Muhammad pbuh was. I've read it several times and still feel like reading it again.
It is a biography of our beloved prophet pbuh telling how he beautifully, wisely handled lots of difficulty he encountered throughout his life. And all those examples shown by him that every Muslim should takes note and follow. There are so many lessons we can learn.
I don't think this book is only suitable for Muslims. To non-Muslims I think this book is best book that introduces the true teachings of Islam.
I passed the book to my girlfriend. She has read it, she said the book was so nice that she's thinking of buying it for his father as a present.
27 August 2010
Malaysia-Indonesia
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The previous tensions have not even fully subsided yet, but now it seems to be heated up again. There was a demonstration by an extreme group calling themselves as bendera, in which human faeces being thrown to the Malaysian embassy. I’m honestly sad with the news. They also said that Malaysian companies here in Indonesia will be their target, to ask them to “pack up their business and go home”. What scared me the most is that they threatened to detain Malaysians on the streets and shave their heads before sending them back.
But I know they do not represent the whole mostly peace-loving Indonesians. I’ve been studying here for 4 years. They are many Indonesians that treated us Malaysian here nicely, putting aside all those tiffs between these two countries.
But of course there are people who hate Malaysian so much that it is obvious. But I honestly don’t blame them. Media here loves playing with the issue and sensationalizing it. Just like how they did to the celebrities. Most of the info they aired were merely baseless allegations and they played it again and again as it were something need to be planted deep in the brain. Hatred been planted.
But I know they do not represent the whole mostly peace-loving Indonesians. I’ve been studying here for 4 years. They are many Indonesians that treated us Malaysian here nicely, putting aside all those tiffs between these two countries.
But of course there are people who hate Malaysian so much that it is obvious. But I honestly don’t blame them. Media here loves playing with the issue and sensationalizing it. Just like how they did to the celebrities. Most of the info they aired were merely baseless allegations and they played it again and again as it were something need to be planted deep in the brain. Hatred been planted.
Please people! Be you Malaysian or Indonesian, please handle with whatever crisis wisely. As in this latest case of sea-border trespassing or whatever, solve it accordingly, sit down and talk, show proofs to support your allegations. Most of us are Muslim. And a Muslim is brother to one another, right? And we are not allowed to prolong fight with each other more than 3 days.
And ironically it happens in the sacred month of Ramadan!
P/s: if somebody throws faeces at you, you give him flower instead. Or else you are just like him. don't' you think.
And ironically it happens in the sacred month of Ramadan!
P/s: if somebody throws faeces at you, you give him flower instead. Or else you are just like him. don't' you think.
25 August 2010
Khaled Hosseini's A Thousand Splendid Suns
I have just done reading the Khaled Hosseini's A Thousand Splendid Suns just now. I'm speechless. I'm satisfied. the beautiful, sad novel is really worth reading. I would really recommend it to everyone to read it. and to enjoy it as much as I do.
The story revolves around two women (or girls), Mariam and Laila from Afghanistan and the hardships they encounter in life due to political strife, religion, and abusive men. the story gets more and more intense, shocking and abusive with lots of actions (sound like I'm commenting on a movie haha) towards the end.
This is the second book by Khaled Hosseini, his debut novel, which is also my favourite, the kite runner. have you guys read it. if haven't read it yet, go and find the book at the book store near you =p I promise it will not let you down.
it was because of this first book that made me without even thinking much, grabbed the second book at The Times book shop in Medan when I saw it on the shelf.
the kite runner is a very heart-breaking novel telling a story about friendship, and guilt and more. also took place in Afghanistan.
The story revolves around two women (or girls), Mariam and Laila from Afghanistan and the hardships they encounter in life due to political strife, religion, and abusive men. the story gets more and more intense, shocking and abusive with lots of actions (sound like I'm commenting on a movie haha) towards the end.
This is the second book by Khaled Hosseini, his debut novel, which is also my favourite, the kite runner. have you guys read it. if haven't read it yet, go and find the book at the book store near you =p I promise it will not let you down.
it was because of this first book that made me without even thinking much, grabbed the second book at The Times book shop in Medan when I saw it on the shelf.
the kite runner is a very heart-breaking novel telling a story about friendship, and guilt and more. also took place in Afghanistan.
24 August 2010
Prayers answered
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Honestly all this is unexpected.
I still remember when I was single, how I reacted when my closest friends asked me when will I find my life companion/girlfriend. I told them that I would only be concentrating on my study and that I was in no rush of finding one yet. If they insisted I told them not to worry because I’ll be seriously involved in serious relationship when I’m 29 years old. That was my plan.
But love is something mysterious and unexpected. And I seriously don’t know how to describe it when you like somebody and all of sudden your life purpose changed, which is to make that somebody, happy.
I read back my previous posts in this blog which I wrote about her. I couldn’t help but to smile. And embarrassed of how silly I was. Started with post title ‘kinda’ then followed by other posts. (title: I am crazy. Am I not?, ah perfect, she’s my girlfriend now!, and the best birthday present ever)
Now it is almost two years since we started to get to know each other. How we started chatting on IM. I still remember the time when I was asking her phone number for the first time. My heart beating so fast that it almost out ran my body’s ability to contain it. And she looked surprised and hesitated to give it haha.
Thinking about this I know exactly who I should be thanking to. It is Allah swt. One and the only God. The Creator of everything that we can see and that we can’t. And the One who plans and make it happens. Thanks to God.
Then I realised, since I was young, I always ended my 5-time prayers with a dua asking God to give me a wife he pleases one day. Just didn’t expect to be this fast. Ermm..Not too fast actually right. Just perfect. Perfect timing. God know best.
But love is something mysterious and unexpected. And I seriously don’t know how to describe it when you like somebody and all of sudden your life purpose changed, which is to make that somebody, happy.
I read back my previous posts in this blog which I wrote about her. I couldn’t help but to smile. And embarrassed of how silly I was. Started with post title ‘kinda’ then followed by other posts. (title: I am crazy. Am I not?, ah perfect, she’s my girlfriend now!, and the best birthday present ever)
Now it is almost two years since we started to get to know each other. How we started chatting on IM. I still remember the time when I was asking her phone number for the first time. My heart beating so fast that it almost out ran my body’s ability to contain it. And she looked surprised and hesitated to give it haha.
Thinking about this I know exactly who I should be thanking to. It is Allah swt. One and the only God. The Creator of everything that we can see and that we can’t. And the One who plans and make it happens. Thanks to God.
Then I realised, since I was young, I always ended my 5-time prayers with a dua asking God to give me a wife he pleases one day. Just didn’t expect to be this fast. Ermm..Not too fast actually right. Just perfect. Perfect timing. God know best.
23 August 2010
learning to live life
Man! I missed my blog so much. The last time I posted something here was on March when I was just started my clinical rotation at the hospital for a month.
Now I’m rotating at the psychiatric department. Currently in week two. I’ve done my rotations at dermatology and venereology, radiology, pulmunology and also paediatrics. Unfortunately I failed at dermatology and venereology haha. I’ve got to repeat my rotation at the department later.
Time passes so quickly. Now it’s august already! I can say there are times when I was happy, sad, a bit depressed, ups and downs. But that’s okay!! I’ve learned a lot about life. And how to live life. My journey is still long. There were times I’m so disappointed with my self. But I was able to cope with it and tried to be better despite all those negative hindrances that kept coming (especially from me myself haha).
I wanted to write about my girlfriend actually. But I’ll write about it later. It’s kinda late already. I have to hit the bed now. And since it is Ramadhan, I want to wish all muslims wherever you are a very happy and blessed ramadhan. Happy fasting!
Now I’m rotating at the psychiatric department. Currently in week two. I’ve done my rotations at dermatology and venereology, radiology, pulmunology and also paediatrics. Unfortunately I failed at dermatology and venereology haha. I’ve got to repeat my rotation at the department later.
Time passes so quickly. Now it’s august already! I can say there are times when I was happy, sad, a bit depressed, ups and downs. But that’s okay!! I’ve learned a lot about life. And how to live life. My journey is still long. There were times I’m so disappointed with my self. But I was able to cope with it and tried to be better despite all those negative hindrances that kept coming (especially from me myself haha).
I wanted to write about my girlfriend actually. But I’ll write about it later. It’s kinda late already. I have to hit the bed now. And since it is Ramadhan, I want to wish all muslims wherever you are a very happy and blessed ramadhan. Happy fasting!
07 March 2010
first week of internship
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It’s Sunday and my first week of placement at cardiology department Adam Malik Hospital Medan has just ended. I’m so glad that I got no on-call today and that I can simply wake up close to noon and just staying home, surfing the internet and eat all day long.
The internship was really tiring, exciting, sad, and boring at the same time haha.
Tiring that I have to wake up so early and be at the hospital before 7 o’clock everyday. And there are on-calls, be it the evening shift or night shift till next morning and be in the hospital for so long hour!
And I’m always hungry cause m not sure when to eat and the fact that I cannot leave the department for too long. Plus the food at the hospital is not really nice haha. And quite expensive for me.
And it is exciting because I have learned a lot of things. It is really easier to learn it hands-on and to see how it’s being applied right away. And all the doctors are really helpful. And the chance to come close to patients is really a good thing and I love it.
And it’s really sad sometimes to see all the sufferings. Sometimes I think I'm quite depressed but I’ll learn to handle it. And I’m so happy if some is okay and leaving the ward to go home.
At certain time, it is kind of boring to stand at the hallway at the ward to wait for visits by the specialist to the ward. Normally I’ll be reading something but I’m just too tired.
And the best thing to do at home is to sleep! But all those faces of patients admitted to the hospital keep staying in my mind and I’ll always be praying that they will be okay soon.
The internship was really tiring, exciting, sad, and boring at the same time haha.
Tiring that I have to wake up so early and be at the hospital before 7 o’clock everyday. And there are on-calls, be it the evening shift or night shift till next morning and be in the hospital for so long hour!
And I’m always hungry cause m not sure when to eat and the fact that I cannot leave the department for too long. Plus the food at the hospital is not really nice haha. And quite expensive for me.
And it is exciting because I have learned a lot of things. It is really easier to learn it hands-on and to see how it’s being applied right away. And all the doctors are really helpful. And the chance to come close to patients is really a good thing and I love it.
And it’s really sad sometimes to see all the sufferings. Sometimes I think I'm quite depressed but I’ll learn to handle it. And I’m so happy if some is okay and leaving the ward to go home.
At certain time, it is kind of boring to stand at the hallway at the ward to wait for visits by the specialist to the ward. Normally I’ll be reading something but I’m just too tired.
And the best thing to do at home is to sleep! But all those faces of patients admitted to the hospital keep staying in my mind and I’ll always be praying that they will be okay soon.
14 February 2010
about my late tok yah and pek.
I have been planning to write about my tok yah (grandfather) for a long time. But every time I want to start writing, I just don’t know how to begin.
May be I should begin by saying that my tok yah was a very special person to me. Not just him but his wife, my grandmother who I called pek. They were the closest person to me other than my parents and my siblings. We lived together since I was small. We lived in the same house for many years... until they’re gone few years ago.
Actually it wasn’t really a same house that we’re living in.. but it was attached to each other. Just like how we’re attached and bonded to each other too.
I remember all those days when they were still around. When my Pek was always busy pulling out the grass that grew around our house during the day and in the evening I could hear her voice reciting the Quran everyday.. and at night, me and my sister would have our Quran lesson from her. It was she the one who made me able to read quran and to finish reading it for the first time.
While my tok yah.. he couldn’t walk really well since he had an accident. But he was the strongest person I knew. And he ate a lot. LOL. He worked really hard during his younger age, so I’ve been told. He had a hearing problem. And at night I could clearly hear the TV he watched from afar because the volume turned so high. And every evening he would sit in the rattan chair in front of the house, and he would tell me the endless story of his during his young age. From all those wars, mecca trip, football matches to kenduri during those times.. And I could still clearly hear his voice until now.. when he called my name and say: “Uda.. tengah masak apa tu.. burger ker..” haha then we eat together. And his favourite food was fried rice. And just plain fried rice, no veggie or meat or chicken. Just plain rice. And his favourite drink was teh tarik.. or teh tarik kedai to be specific.. don’t try to make him teh tarik at home because it tastes different he said haha
And I could still vividly remember those times he always asked me questions asking when will I finished my studies. And when I gave him an answer he would say that he didn’t think he would live that long to see it himself. I always reacted saying it was wrong to say it.. it could be me the one who gone first. We never knew.. he didn’t say anything but I remember his look kinda said that he didn’t think so.
Now that they’re gone, I always missing them much. Sometimes I had these dreams where I got to see them. And talk and cried. They were the first person closest to me to be gone. And sometimes I keep asking question like where are they now?
But death is something that I really must get used to as a doctor. Some friends of mine who already started their clinical told me that it’s a normal scene in hospital to see people leaving this world everyday.
Pek and Tok Yah.. I really hope to see you one day!! And we can catch up with each other. Surely you guys have so many stories to tell. Like always.
May be I should begin by saying that my tok yah was a very special person to me. Not just him but his wife, my grandmother who I called pek. They were the closest person to me other than my parents and my siblings. We lived together since I was small. We lived in the same house for many years... until they’re gone few years ago.
Actually it wasn’t really a same house that we’re living in.. but it was attached to each other. Just like how we’re attached and bonded to each other too.
I remember all those days when they were still around. When my Pek was always busy pulling out the grass that grew around our house during the day and in the evening I could hear her voice reciting the Quran everyday.. and at night, me and my sister would have our Quran lesson from her. It was she the one who made me able to read quran and to finish reading it for the first time.
While my tok yah.. he couldn’t walk really well since he had an accident. But he was the strongest person I knew. And he ate a lot. LOL. He worked really hard during his younger age, so I’ve been told. He had a hearing problem. And at night I could clearly hear the TV he watched from afar because the volume turned so high. And every evening he would sit in the rattan chair in front of the house, and he would tell me the endless story of his during his young age. From all those wars, mecca trip, football matches to kenduri during those times.. And I could still clearly hear his voice until now.. when he called my name and say: “Uda.. tengah masak apa tu.. burger ker..” haha then we eat together. And his favourite food was fried rice. And just plain fried rice, no veggie or meat or chicken. Just plain rice. And his favourite drink was teh tarik.. or teh tarik kedai to be specific.. don’t try to make him teh tarik at home because it tastes different he said haha
And I could still vividly remember those times he always asked me questions asking when will I finished my studies. And when I gave him an answer he would say that he didn’t think he would live that long to see it himself. I always reacted saying it was wrong to say it.. it could be me the one who gone first. We never knew.. he didn’t say anything but I remember his look kinda said that he didn’t think so.
Now that they’re gone, I always missing them much. Sometimes I had these dreams where I got to see them. And talk and cried. They were the first person closest to me to be gone. And sometimes I keep asking question like where are they now?
But death is something that I really must get used to as a doctor. Some friends of mine who already started their clinical told me that it’s a normal scene in hospital to see people leaving this world everyday.
Pek and Tok Yah.. I really hope to see you one day!! And we can catch up with each other. Surely you guys have so many stories to tell. Like always.
12 February 2010
wisuda (convocation)
Last month, two big things happened in my life. We medical students at Universitas Sumatera Utara (USU) took the doctor’s Hippocrates oath and also graduated as young doctors. We received the sarjana kedokteran equal to medical degree. Unlike Malaysia, here we have two graduations. The first one as we just received will enable us to be ‘young’ doctors and to do our clinical course in local hospitals. This hands-on training is really an important part of our study. Later at the end of this course then we will be graduated again as a real doctor.
me, left and my housemate fauzan.
me, left and my housemate fauzan.
I’m so scared.. I think I’m not ready yet... There are still lots of thing I don’t know. Since I still got some times before actually start the internship, I will study and do revisions as much as I can. I don’t want to look like an idiot in front of other doctors and patients. And I want to be as helpful as possible to help the patients. And I really hope I can start studying as soon as possible! And stop being lazy much. Haha Work hard uda!!
my friends and i, jumping at the back hahah
took a photo at the flower decorated board congratulating Malaysian students.
my friends and i, jumping at the back hahah
took a photo at the flower decorated board congratulating Malaysian students.
11 February 2010
adorable ubu
Now Ubu is sleeping. So there are no better time to write something in here. If not, she would never let me do this without disturbance and hassle, caused by her.
Ubu is the name of my recently adopted kitten. We (Syaf and I) found her shivering by the road side one night and didn’t have the heart to leave her alone. So we picked her up and brought her home. And she is part of our family since then. now, it has been almost a month already.
She is very very naughty. She loves to help me push some unnecessary buttons on my keyboard and something I don't understand happened to my computer. When I was reading some articles on the internet she turned my computer into a sleep mode. When I was watching a movie she would bring up some player’s menu and control on the screen and I didn’t know how to remove it until I have been working on it for quite some time. When I was sleeping she would woke me up early by biting my fingers or licking my ears, annoyed, I put her outside haha. If I’m reading a book she’d come and sit on it and make that innocent look like she did nothing wrong.
And now there she is.. sleeping on my blanket. She looks so peace and super cute. Ahh adorable!!
Ubu is the name of my recently adopted kitten. We (Syaf and I) found her shivering by the road side one night and didn’t have the heart to leave her alone. So we picked her up and brought her home. And she is part of our family since then. now, it has been almost a month already.
She is very very naughty. She loves to help me push some unnecessary buttons on my keyboard and something I don't understand happened to my computer. When I was reading some articles on the internet she turned my computer into a sleep mode. When I was watching a movie she would bring up some player’s menu and control on the screen and I didn’t know how to remove it until I have been working on it for quite some time. When I was sleeping she would woke me up early by biting my fingers or licking my ears, annoyed, I put her outside haha. If I’m reading a book she’d come and sit on it and make that innocent look like she did nothing wrong.
And now there she is.. sleeping on my blanket. She looks so peace and super cute. Ahh adorable!!
07 February 2010
moved to a new house.
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I am at our new house by the time I’m writing this post. We moved here, at Tanjung Sari, Medan for almost a month already. I kind of like this house very much. It’s a two-story house with 4 rooms, enough for each of us to get one each. Quite far from the Medan city centre but very close to ring road, an area booming with economic activities where new restaurants and marts are mushrooming. and it's also the cheapest house we've ever rented so far!
The first time when we arrived here (in Indonesia), we stayed in rented rooms or called kost by the locals. But staying there was not really easy since we have to respect the owner’s regulations (e.g. no noise allowed), difficult to cook and do social activities (haha), and also had to be home before certain time.
Then later we moved to a house very close to our faculty. It was quite expensive but we didn’t mind considering the location and money was not really a big issue then. =p
A year later, we decided to move again to a cheaper house and we did. It was more like a shop house, four stories and further away compare to the previous house. But wasn’t too far since I was still able to cycle to the campus everyday. but the area was really dusty. I mean REALLY dusty. We couldn’t cope with it and decided to move again after staying there for almost a year. Oh, and another thing, the water bill for two months was Rp2000000 equal to RM800! C-R-A-Z-Y
So here we are… at a new house. The place is really calm, and clean too. Lots of shop nearby, accessible with a better road quality (compare to other area), easier to go to Adam Malik Hospital and very close to mcD =p
Hopefully this house will be just fine… (will not gonna stay home much anyway once the internship started)
But so far…. Lots of mosquitoes!!
The first time when we arrived here (in Indonesia), we stayed in rented rooms or called kost by the locals. But staying there was not really easy since we have to respect the owner’s regulations (e.g. no noise allowed), difficult to cook and do social activities (haha), and also had to be home before certain time.
Then later we moved to a house very close to our faculty. It was quite expensive but we didn’t mind considering the location and money was not really a big issue then. =p
A year later, we decided to move again to a cheaper house and we did. It was more like a shop house, four stories and further away compare to the previous house. But wasn’t too far since I was still able to cycle to the campus everyday. but the area was really dusty. I mean REALLY dusty. We couldn’t cope with it and decided to move again after staying there for almost a year. Oh, and another thing, the water bill for two months was Rp2000000 equal to RM800! C-R-A-Z-Y
So here we are… at a new house. The place is really calm, and clean too. Lots of shop nearby, accessible with a better road quality (compare to other area), easier to go to Adam Malik Hospital and very close to mcD =p
Hopefully this house will be just fine… (will not gonna stay home much anyway once the internship started)
But so far…. Lots of mosquitoes!!
04 January 2010
being alone again, but that's alright.
-->It’s semester break. All my closest friends are already went back home right now, to their hometown in Malaysia. Except me. I stay here. I do not go back because… I don’t think I have enough money to spend on the flight ticket and to pay for the expensive immigration thingy. Plus the holiday is not that long. Only for two weeks. So I decided not to go back.
Afiq was the last one to go back to Malaysia. I started to be alone after he went back last week. All my other friends have already gone back earlier. Me and Afiq we always have certain issue which sometimes put us in a… not-so-cool situation. We used to be very close before those ‘issues’ came up. I’m not going to babble about this in here. But I’m glad now since things since have been worked out a bit now. Or, maybe I’m just happy because with him, it’s always easier to go simply anywhere compare with people who always have reasons to not to-do or not to-go. We went the beach one day before he gone back. I love beach. And the view. And the breeze. Everything.
Now, here I am. Alone in my house. Like the previous times when I was alone during the holiday, the early part was the hardest. But as times goes… I’ll get used to it. And later enjoyed it. Enjoyed being alone and that I can spend all the time just by myself and for my self.
Somehow, this is the first time that I am completely alone as there are no more cats around. They were such great companion and friends. I remember.
But it is okay. Now, unlike those times, I have my computer with me. It is not that quiet anymore. And I can watch some movies to keep me sane. Or write some nonsense like I do now without having to go to the internet café.
it has been a year.
On December 9th last year, my beloved girlfriend, Izzati turned 23 years old. It reminded me that it has been already a year since the day when I started to… approach her. If you’re my follower sure u must have read my post about it. Which I wrote about how I had a certain particular feeling towards this girl who I thought was medically not suitable with me haha.
It has been a year. Glad she’s my girlfriend now. Everything went well so far. Even though sometimes I think I’m expecting too much from her. But what is the most important thing is that, I found out that she’s not as perfect as I think. She’s better than that! I love her so much. I’m quite sure she is someone I want to live with till the end of my life. Or forever.
It has been a year. Glad she’s my girlfriend now. Everything went well so far. Even though sometimes I think I’m expecting too much from her. But what is the most important thing is that, I found out that she’s not as perfect as I think. She’s better than that! I love her so much. I’m quite sure she is someone I want to live with till the end of my life. Or forever.
disappoinment.
--> I will be entering a full clinical course next year. I’m so worried. I know that I’m not fully ready for that. There are so many things that I must know but I don’t. Thinking about this really worries me. I just hope that everything will goes well for me.
Looking back at those 3 years that I have spent here on theory, I am disappointed with my performance. I don’t know why but I just couldn’t be as good as I hope. I think that wasn’t my very best. I can do better than that. But it’s too late now. To mourn or complaining too much about things that I can’t change.
Anyway, I’m glad that my research is done and I passed. Even though I faced a lot of problems and hindrances. Even though I’ve been attacked with lots of question on the seminar day, my research, ‘pregnancy and its risk of being diagnosed in later clinical and histopathologic stage in breast cancer patients in H. Adam Malik hospital Medan: a cross sectional study, is accepted.
I passed all the exams too. But, to be honest I feel sad with my performance as the results are just enough to passed me… all I got are C C C or C+. Sigh.
Dear reader, if there’s any, please pray for me. So that everything will be just fine during the hospital training soon.
02 January 2010
about last raya
It was the best aidilfitri I’ve ever had. May be because hadn’t really celebrating it for quite a while. It was so much fun.
I was lucky. Some of my friends, Syaza, Naim and Jalal were also on the boat on the way to Penang. The journey took more than six hours. From Penang, I took a bus to go to Taiping where my parents will fetch me up to take me home.
It was early in the morning when I left my house in Medan which later I took a bus from Medan to Belawan port before I got in the boat. I arrived home in Lenggong, in the state of Perak at midnight.
I was lucky. Some of my friends, Syaza, Naim and Jalal were also on the boat on the way to Penang. The journey took more than six hours. From Penang, I took a bus to go to Taiping where my parents will fetch me up to take me home.
It was early in the morning when I left my house in Medan which later I took a bus from Medan to Belawan port before I got in the boat. I arrived home in Lenggong, in the state of Perak at midnight.
I helped my father with his kuih/cake selling at the Ramadan bazaar. I really missed doing that for a very long time. And I did some raya shopping, played some firecrackers, and helped my mother made some raya delicacies.
My mother’s birthday on 1st of Syawal.
Then it came the raya day. It was really a busy day. Started with some children coming in groups then later families of relative coming endlessly till night. I was really exhausted but it was worth the fun.
Visited our late grandparents after eid prayer.
With my father.
With my mother.
On second day, I went out with friends all day long. We visited all of our friends’ houses. Until night, it was more than ten houses we visited. Glad to see old friends and how much they’ve changed. Most of them are already working.
With friends.
Third day, I hanged out with my family. We visited our relatives’ houses.
The holiday was short. I went back to Indonesia after I renewed my passport. Also by boat travelling across the straits of melaka. This time I was alone. Unfortunately it took more than ten hours on the sea. I’m quite sure; it will be my last time to be on a ferry ride.
With friends.
Third day, I hanged out with my family. We visited our relatives’ houses.
The holiday was short. I went back to Indonesia after I renewed my passport. Also by boat travelling across the straits of melaka. This time I was alone. Unfortunately it took more than ten hours on the sea. I’m quite sure; it will be my last time to be on a ferry ride.
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