ah! perfect.

I am so happy.

Haha. the first time when I started blogging, I did it because I was frustrated and sad. And this site will be the place where I throw out everything.

But now, I blog about how happy I am right now. yes, me is happy.

I just got back from a date, with her. It was like the best outing ever in my life, really. She's perfect. We ate Korean food at her favourite restaurant. I never enjoy eating so much like I did just now. The food was really, really really nice.

Then we had ice cream. I know, this might sound like I'm exaggerating it, but I loved the ice cream so much that I was thinking to buy another one haha.

Then we watched a movie. It was great, the story is about three journalists trying to catch the Bosnia war criminal.

And the highlight of the night was.. she herself. hehe. Her presence was really something that make me so glad and happy. =p

ah! perfect evening~

i am crazy. am i not?

Hmm I don't know how to begin with haha. Okay, remember the girl that I was talking about? The one that me and me friends celebrated her birthday? Ala... the one that I blogged about under title of 'kind of'

Okay if you remember now then good.

Me and her. we are getting closer now. And I just can't help but to tell the world that I like her a lot! Yes, a lot!!! :)

I'm dating her now. We went out together. Sitting in class next to each other. And talk on the phone, texting. Wow. I just don't know how to describe how I feel right now. I am so glad that she is my friend. I want her to be my best friend, ..or more!

It's just nice to just to look at her. or to listen to her voice.

Haha. I'm crazy. Okay lah! Enough for now.

kosong

tanpa kau hidup aku kosong.

aku sibuk tapi hidup aku kosong,
aku ketawa tapi hidup aku kosong,
aku letih dan tertidur tapi hidup aku kosong.

tanpa kau hidup aku sepi.

aku berteriak dan gelak tapi hidup aku sepi,
aku bernyanyi tapi hidup aku sepi,
aku gelak dan menjerit tapi hidup aku sepi.

tanpa kau hidup aku kaku.

aku mengayuh tapi hidup aku kaku,
aku berlari tapi hidup aku kaku,
aku tidur, berjalan dan bermimpi tapi hidup aku kaku.

tanpa kau hidup aku kosong!
kosong seperti tin kosong,
terapung dan bersedih,
mengenang nasib diri,
setelah dilambung ombak,
yang membawa kau pergi...

kind of

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Hmmm

Last night was awesome. We were celebrating someone's birthday. To make it short, I kind of like her.

Kind of.

Because I don't really believe in love after the first sight. For me. Love is something that we develop over time. You know, something like the more we get to know each other.. the deeper the feeling of ____ we feel. Chewah.. in this case like building the bridge la..

And to be honest, the more I know about her. the more I like about her. For or now I can say that I like her as a friend. Not more than that. 

And more important is... she. She must likes me too . or else this relationship is not gonna go anywhere.

And I don't want to be selfish and force her to accept me in case one day my feelings toward her will be very strong.

But, here’s the downside... we’re both are not really suitable for each other medically. I have asthma and she has it too.

Let’s leave it to God to decide.. And we human. Lets hope for the best. While preparing for the worst.